When Will He Be Enough?

I find it interesting to go back and read through old journals and notebooks I have kept in previous phases of my life.  I don’t keep many around because sometimes there are things I don’t want anyone else to stumble upon – my journals tend to be the dumping grounds for whatever “junk” is lying around in my heart and writing is cathartic for me – but some I have kept because they have documented specific points in time that are meaningful and show growth, even when it was painful.

When God gave me the word “Enough” for 2017 I was not surprised.  When I was praying over a word from him, and Enough was brought to mind, I knew it was for more than just one purpose.  The word holds significance for me in several areas – my self-worth, my trust in Him, and more just to name a few.

As I was cleaning up this blog, I came across some old posts.  And I do mean OLD posts.  Back when I was blogging as “The Queen Mommy” at wordpress.com.  (serious flashback!) Whew!  Still, the word ENOUGH came at me like an animated gif…

Post 1 is here.  (Can I tell you that not much has changed since that post…  other than no more math class)

Post 2 is here.

These posts were written about 6 1/2 years ago.  A lot in my life has changed since then.   And I also see that some things have not changed at all.

I am still  learning some of the same lessons the hard way.  I am still entrapped by certain lies about God and about myself that I need to let go of so I can be free of my discontentment.

I am discovering a couple of rules on my journey in life.  If I stick to these rules, I find great contentment and peace.

Rule #1:  GOD IS ALWAYS ENOUGH.

Rule #2:  I am “Enough” to where and what He calls me.  If I am not, see Rule #1. 

I am all about independence and self-reliance.  It is both a strength and weakness.  I like to shoulder my load and carry my weight.  I expect many other people to do the same.  HOWEVER, I am not always the one who determines what my load is or what weight I should be carrying.

Sometimes I take on more than I should.  More than I am called to take on.  And I suffer for it.  And so do the people around me.  When my independence becomes more important to the things He has called me to in my life, I become bitter and discontented and angry and it ravages my soul, leaving me dry and dusty and unable to be who I am meant to be.

ENOUGH.

This word holds layers of meaning for me.  I am glad it is the word God brought to my heart for this year.  I hope I can learn the lessons He wants to bring to my heart and life.

Do you have a word or phrase for 2017?  How does it hold meaning for you?  Have you seen God working the word into your life?